Friday Night Lights

Upon the request of one of my more consistent readers, last night I went back and re-read through the entire blog. I did this to make sure I was staying "true" to myself, as well as to see if I am staying somewhat aligned to the same goals as I started out with. When this thing started, the whole idea of being on sabbatical and writing a blog may have seemed like more of a romantic notion, while now, I am entering into the reality phase. Not to say the two "phases" cannot align, and believe me I am trying my best to do so, but as we travel further and further into this sabbatical, somethings gotta give.

One thing that has been a challenge, and one that I've had to overcome is the whole dream job theory. In the beginning I figured I'd travel a bit, clear the head, and something amazing would pop into my head. Needless to say, nothing has "jumped" out at me as a clear sign of what I should do with my life. There has been no "aha" moment for me. Yet. So I really can't just sit around and wait for some brilliant idea, God knows it may never come. As I was told a week or so ago, "You may not be able to find your dream job right away. You may have to find a job you like, and make it into your dream job." And truthfully I'm not sure what my dream job is. I mean, I like this writing thing, and I suppose I'd love to be a comedy writer for a sitcom or late night show or something, or possibly be an actor. I'm very influenced by the whole Judd Apatow, Seth Rogen movement, but sorry to say, I don't think that is a realistic goal, considering a lot of things...one being my location in the Granite State. Now I know, I could pack it up, move to Cali and start to live the dream, but I can't do that. Just can't.

So in an attempt to align the romantic and the realistic I have had to figure out what type of jobs are out there that I may like. That is all I can do. As much as I'd like to, I can't stay "On Sabbatical" forever...we must pay the bills! As much as that sucks. I wish I didn't have any overhead, but I sure as sh*t do. So, based on the career assessment I took a month or so ago, I have decided that the proper type of sales is right for me. One that revolves around relationship building, a product/service that I feel is needed, a social aspect (such as taking clients out to lunch, cocktails, etc;) Because I shine after a few cocktails, I really do. In a professional manner. Maybe thats wrong, but I like to socialize, so that needs to be incorporated into this next job. The goddamm career assessment says so. And the work environment needs to be social as well, or at least a positive, free thinking place to hang my hat. And I like nice things, I like to travel. I'm just not one of those people who can get by on greek soup and rub 2 pennies together to make a nickel...call me shallow, but thats not me. As much as I love skiing, golf and beach, how the f can I support those things I love without making a substantial amount of money? And I'm competitive. I am. I don't like to think of myself as conceded, but I think I can achieve more than most. I think I have more talent than most. I just need to find a way to channel that talent, which I have not done yet. As I told a former boss at Cintas one day when I was ready to take a long walk off a short pier, I don't think I've ever given 100% at anything. School or jobs that is. Now sports back in the day, I gave over 100%, which I believe is where my competitive edge comes from. I mean, at 13 I made the f'n Babe Ruth All World Series Team and set a national record for stolen bases. And I'd hate to think of those as my glory days...

So in order to pair all those thoughts I just rambled about, a career in Medical Sales I think will help me accomplish those things. And no its not the most glamorous of fields, but what the f is? Medicine/healthcare is a field that is certainly not going away, and with insurance money involved, I believe its a "lucrative" field. So thats where I'm going to look. And I know in yesterday's post I said I applied for a job that wanted ex-Cintas employees and I hated Cintas. Well, this is true, however Cintas is really an entry level gig, sales 101, and I can see why companies want these types of robots, er people.

I left there the first time back in '05, and really enjoyed the job I took at World Savings, as a mortgage wholesaler. My clients were brokers, who than put consumers in my loans. We had fun. I had great clients, we made good money, we ate, drank and were merry. I had a blast with my mgrs and coworkers. Everything was great, except the mortgage/real estate market f'n crashed. Beyond my control. So I went back to Cintas, because they offered a nice package, and the rest is history. Since then I feel I just been going through the motions, and f that I'm tired of it. Thats why I did this. I want to stop that. And part of me knows that many most of that is on me, that no matter what job I take its on me, not on the job. But the job does need to excite me, at least at first, during the "ramp up" phase. But I think after this break, mentally I will be in a better place. A place where I'm ready to strut my mf'ing stuff.

I apologize for rambling here. Actually, no I don't. This is a time of realization and brutal honesty, so thats what I'm going for here. I need to be brutally honest with myself, and I'm trying to be. A lot of the time I try to hide from reality, but at times you must embrace reality, take the bull by the mf'ing horns and get down to business. Not saying I am "getting down to business" but in identifying medical sales as a potential career, thats what I'm trying to do.

And I sincerely appreciate everyone's readership and feedback. It has been warmly welcomed. And something will happen from all of it. It will. I really do believe so. So stay tuned people. Something will happen. Keep spittin that advice, because I love all of it.

One day we will rule the universe! Divide and conquer!

On that note I'm out. Time to reflect on this sh*t over the weekend. And hopefully next week is a great one.

Go Tarheels.